Hey you guys, it's Simone again, still writing away at this little blog hoping that one day one of the other writers will come back. It's only like three more weeks until school starts and I am gradually getting more nervous about it but I also feel sort of numb. It's weird. I'm supposed to be writing Kaede a letter right now and I really want to and I want to tell her all about the Rookie summer's end hullabaloo in the park this weekend and everything that has happened this summer and ask her about her summer and if she likes Texas so far and if she's made any friends and how her sister is doing but I just haven't done it yet and I feel awful that I've been putting it off. A lot of my friends are moving/have moved this summer. Kaede, Anna Lucia, and now Alice (not the writer here but Alice from the Rookie meetup group) and Celia. I met a new girl in the meetup group at the hullabaloo picnic on Saturday. Her name is Colette and she was sort of shy but I'd like to get to know her more. She had an adorable pixie haircut and made these cute little cupcakes. I think I was sort of irritable towards her and I'm not sure why. I just didn't feel like trying to make friends on Saturday I guess. Like I wasn't in a bad mood or anything but I just didn't feel like it. That sounds so stupid and lazy and I don't even have an excuse for not being as friendly as I could have been. At the next meetup I'll try harder. I just feel sort of overwhelmed sometimes (lately especially) by life and its pointlessness, idk. I've been looking at other high schools because I'm almost positive that Lab is going to be too hard (I also don't really agree with the whole education system there of tons of work and pressure and whatnot). I don't think this year is going to be a good one but I'm trying to keep myself optimistic. Maybe Spectrum will be really fun. Maybe my teachers will be amazing and I'll manage to get out of gym every morning. I dunno. Maybe this year will be awesome. I also wanted to write a little about the songs that people say describe me. In sixth grade Milon Trilling told me that the song Cornflake Girl by Tori Amos was my theme song. I think this was just because I posted something about cornflakes on Facebook as my status. I'm still trying to figure out what the song actually means. Earlier tonight, Anna Lucia told me that The Winner Is by Mychael Danna is a song that describes me. That song doesn't have lyrics for me to worry about figuring out so that's nice and I truly think I might like it more than Cornflake Girl (although my music tastes have undoubtedly changed since the sixth grade). I dunno, I feel like I had more to write here but I'm still feeling sort of subdued and numb. It's a weird feeling to have.
Until next time,
Simone
8/19/13
11:10pm
