Episode VI; Return of the Blogger

Hey guys, Paytoni here!
I decided to lessen the burden on poor Simone by adding my two-cents to this little blog.
I'm not in the same spot as the rest of the writers, which means I don't get a lot of insight into their goings-on... but i've had a lot of my own as well. High school is huge and looming and yes, homework folks. My school doesn't swamp us though, they expect us to know what we have to on our own terms which gives me more time for the social aspect of our lovely learning institution. Free periods are a HUGE change from middle school, they give me time to hang with my friends in our school's coffee shop the Fox Den. I went to a school dance last weekend, which wasn't as utterly horrendous as I thought it would be... Overall, a pretty big success this year (at least in starting off without failing outright haha)
Just putting a little post out there to let you all know i'm back:)
Cheers

Technical Things And The Beginning of High School

Hey guys, it's Simone (like usual). I just figured out how to add my normal email onto the writers list so I don't have to log in and out of the admin email account every time I want to write something here. Maybe that will push me to write more? It's a chilly Monday night in September here in Chicago and I have oodles and poodles of homework to do. Like actually it's absurd how much homework we have. I can't even deal with this. I don't know what it is but I've been thinking recently how messed up our education system is. Like we're at school all day working and then we come home and have to do hours and hours more of work. I just don't think it's right and it just overwhelms me and makes me want to cry. I'm certainly not learning much this way. Already I have late assignments and stuff I've forgotten to turn in and it's just crazy. After working all day I can't focus when I get home and end up on the internet. Like tonight I've literally answered two questions out of the seventeen we have for Early World History and nothing else. I haven't done any other homework yet. It's just ridiculous. Even on the weekends. I missed going out to dinner with my grandma on Sunday because I still had loads of homework to do. I just think that it's wrong to give kids this much homework and stress on the freaking third week of school. Learning shouldn't be something that people dread and get so freaked out about so I don't understand why teachers make it that way. This Tumblr post explained a few aspects about how I'm feeling a bit more eloquently:
I don’t want to learn in a classroom anymore. I want to travel and talk to people and learn that way. I want to learn as I go, gathering knowledge and not being rigorously tested on it. I don’t want to lose passion in the things I like because of the worry of exams. I want to fuelled by snippets of knowledge I gain from people and be inquisitive. School has stolen my passion for the things I’m interested in and I hate it for that.
I just want to add onto it that school shouldn't cause so much stress but the way the education system is set up (at least at Lab) it causes enormous stress for me.
I know I'm sort of rambling on here about my ~f e e l i n g s~  but no one really reads this blog (or writes on it for that matter!). I dunno, school just has me feeling really overwhelmed and sad for no particular reason. I just can't muster up the motivation to want to do well since I feel like it doesn't mean anything if that makes any sense?
Idk, I'll probably get over this back-to-school lack of motivation and whatnot soon I hope. I have to go film a Youtube video now for the channel my friends from camp and I started (http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJaGlVJn14b0gYM9ZSuK0Kg?feature=g-subs-u). this week's theme is fandom and I'm struggling to think of something good to film about. I just feel sort of horrible and un-creative and I don't want to do anything. It's a great tone to start the year off with. Welcome to high school (Night Vale).
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Monday, September 23rd
7:48

I Should Be Doing Something Else Right Now

Hey you guys, it's Simone again, still writing away at this little blog hoping that one day one of the other writers will come back. It's only like three more weeks until school starts and I am gradually getting more nervous about it but I also feel sort of numb. It's weird. I'm supposed to be writing Kaede a letter right now and I really want to and I want to tell her all about the Rookie summer's end hullabaloo in the park this weekend and everything that has happened this summer and ask her about her summer and if she likes Texas so far and if she's made any friends and how her sister is doing but I just haven't done it yet and I feel awful that I've been putting it off. A lot of my friends are moving/have moved this summer. Kaede, Anna Lucia, and now Alice (not the writer here but Alice from the Rookie meetup group) and Celia. I met a new girl in the meetup group at the hullabaloo picnic on Saturday. Her name is Colette and she was sort of shy but I'd like to get to know her more. She had an adorable pixie haircut and made these cute little cupcakes. I think I was sort of irritable towards her and I'm not sure why. I just didn't feel like trying to make friends on Saturday I guess. Like I wasn't in a bad mood or anything but I just didn't feel like it. That sounds so stupid and lazy and I don't even have an excuse for not being as friendly as I could have been. At the next meetup I'll try harder. I just feel sort of overwhelmed sometimes (lately especially) by life and its pointlessness, idk. I've been looking at other high schools because I'm almost positive that Lab is going to be too hard (I also don't really agree with the whole education system there of tons of work and pressure and whatnot). I don't think this year is going to be a good one but I'm trying to keep myself optimistic. Maybe Spectrum will be really fun. Maybe my teachers will be amazing and I'll manage to get out of gym every morning. I dunno. Maybe this year will be awesome. I also wanted to write a little about the songs that people say describe me. In sixth grade Milon Trilling told me that the song Cornflake Girl by Tori Amos was my theme song. I think this was just because I posted something about cornflakes on Facebook as my status. I'm still trying to figure out what the song actually means. Earlier tonight, Anna Lucia told me that The Winner Is by Mychael Danna is a song that describes me. That song doesn't have lyrics for me to worry about figuring out so that's nice and I truly think I might like it more than Cornflake Girl (although my music tastes have undoubtedly changed since the sixth grade). I dunno, I feel like I had more to write here but I'm still feeling sort of subdued and numb. It's a weird feeling to have.
Until next time,
Simone
8/19/13
11:10pm

Last Week

Hey guys! I meant to do a post last week since I had a spectacular week last week. It just slipped my mind and I'm only getting around to it now. Today has been alright, I went to visit my grandma at the new place where she moved and it's adjacent to a sort of eery older building and there's a really pretty rock place (they call it a grotto) that I'd love to take pictures in. We all got Dairy Queen and mine had a hair in it which sort of ruined my day. But moving on, last week was so much fun. I hung out with Alice and we went to this park by her house which was really pretty.

After that we went back to her house and we made chocolate milkshakes and I made tiny cakes and a pie out of clay and she made a tiny person. My mom had to pick me up way too soon sadly :( Last week I also made a really good tuna melt.
 
Idk, I feel like this post isn't really going anywhere so here's the third and final fun thing of last week. I got together with Rookie Meetup Group member Isabella! We had a smashing time at Water Tower Place ^_^
It's just so much fun when you meet up with someone for the first real time (we also met at Chicago Zine Fest but only briefly) and just click. I just love when that happens. I feel like she would have gotten along really well with Kaede which makes me really sad not only that Kaede had to move but that we didn't hang out more before she left. It was like the same sort of friendship dynamic with Kaede, like we only really hung out 2-3 times but we just sort of clicked. Since I'm on a picture kick right now, here are some pictures from The American Girl Place at Water Tower and the Topshop dressing rooms where we tried on these supremely fancy dresses.

 I'm not really sure what else to write here now that I've described the past week. Since then I've just sort of sat around inside. I've gotten really into these two animes, Attack on Titan, and Free! Iwatobi Swim Club which are both awesome in their own way. Attack on Titan is much more serious but can sometimes make you laugh because it tries so hard to be serious and for the most part succeeds but sometimes it's a little ridiculous. Free! Iwatobi Swim Club is a lot more humorous and silly, and probably the most unintentionally (or maybe it is intentional and they're leading up to that) gay thing I've watched ever. So much subtext lol! I highly encourage all of y'all to watch it. The formatting on this post is going all weird from the pictures. I dunno, I'd like to start using pictures more since I know I really enjoy it when blogs I follow post pictures. It sort of disrupts the way I like to describe things though, so idk if I'll keep doing pictures. Later this week there is a Rookie Meetup Group picnic so I'll try to blog some about that afterwards ^_^Toodles!Simone8/13/139:53pm 

August

Gosh, it feels like the summer has flown by! It's already August and I'm working on a Freshman playlist for school and trying to figure out whose classes that I'm in. I'm sort of disappointed in my schedule thus far. I don't know who is in all of my classes yet but I have gym first period. Ugh. I have advisory though with two of my really good friends, if only all of my friends could be in my classes. I know everyone always says this but summer really did fly by. I got back from camp on July 20th and camp was so amazing. I can't even begin to start describing it. I feel like it's all I talk about (I apologize because I know it's annoying sometimes when all someone talks about is summer camp) but I genuinely loved it so much. All my other summer camp experiences pale in comparison and I realize how unhappy I was at those camps. Like I just want to be at this camp all year and I just love all of the friends I made so much and I wish I had gotten to know them better and they were all so sweet and amazing. One of our other writers Payton went to the same camp with me and I hope that she had as good of a time. It's just hard to transition back to home life after two weeks of independence and being able to just be yourself all the time for two weeks. Not that I'm not myself at home but I feel like I censor my opinions more and don't express myself as strongly and just am more passive and whatnot since I'm around my parents more often than not. At camp you're just always with this group of amazing girls who you become friends with so quickly and have a million inside jokes but can also talk about more serious stuff I guess. I had an amazing conversation with this one girl, Helen, about people using mental illness as adjectives and it was really nice to be able to have conversations like that I guess with someone. I'm rambling on now, sorry. I just really want to try and describe it. Anywho, I took two classes, DIY fashion, and creative writing. In DIY fashion I made a dress which was sort of fun-ish but then we had to all walk in a fashion show on talent show night which made me really uncomfortable (Payton can vouch for my discomfort, she was there). In creative writing we each wrote a piece and put it all into an anthology, I edited and added bits to a thing I did for school. I started adding on more from a different character's perspective but I think it sounds really stupid so I haven't added any since I've gotten home. There were so many amazing writers there so it was sort of hard to view my work as very good compared to theirs. Like one girl, Calla, her stuff sounded like it could be a book, a really good YA book, she and these two other girls (Nora and Helen) did poetry on open mic night and it was really good. Going home was so sad. I miss everyone so much and it makes me really sad to think about how it will be an entire year before we see each other again. One girl Rachel said we should all get together over a break in school but all of our breaks are so different and it's crazy expensive to travel and as much as I hate to say it I don't think it's going to happen. I finished my piece about the sleepover with Anna at camp.
We weren’t let into the movie since we were too young. It didn’t seem to matter though, the wind blew through our hair and the windows were all rolled down. Dusk slowly settling through the sky, making itself comfortable. We picked up her brother at the train station as Mackelmore resonated through the speakers and into the still darkening sky. We stopped at the 7-Eleven on the way home before watching movies. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Valerie and Her Week of Wonders. We talk and are interrupted by memories, thoughts, and ourselves. I tell her about another sleepover where I had stuck my head out the window in the rain at 3 am and watched my friends make sundaes in their mouths. She cuts me off, asking if I want to go outside. Before I can think I’m saying yes and she’s unlocking the sliding door in the kitchen. It’s midnight and I’m on her porch holding her camera as she grabs her skateboard from the garage. She says the neighborhood is safe. Soon I’m running alongside her skateboard and as she coasts along she tells me about her neighbors. The street lights that dot the street shine down on her as she glides in and out of their luminescence. I take the camera from her. Click. The flash goes off. Everything is bright for a second before fading back into the early morning darkness. She says we can get them developed in the morning before my mom comes and offers to teach me how to skateboard. I decline and take another picture. We reach a manmade pond where the full moon is reflected and reproduced by the dozen. I apologize for using so much of her film. There are 32 left on the roll. Soon her house comes back into view. She takes a picture of me sitting on her skateboard and we traipse silently up the lawn to the back door. Everything is as we left it. Pop tart wrappers on the couch, and Baby (her grandma’s dog) at the door, still silent.We slide the door open and I feel a sort of freedom. But all too soon I’m in my mom’s car, pictures undeveloped, as the city skyline looms back into view. I wish we could have hung out more before she left. Maybe she’ll come back to Palatine before leaving for college. My eyelids are heavy as the highway flies by. Maybe we shouldn’t have stayed up until four am.
With that piece of semi-okay writing, I ought to end this post. It's almost 3 am and I'm totally screwing with my sleep cycle by staying up this late.
Toodles!
Simone
8/6/13
2:40 am

Post Graduation Summer(y)

I did a sort of play on words in the title, I was going to do something like Post Graduation/Summery Stuff but then I realized I could do a play on Post Graduation Summary so, yeah. I feel like I should be writing some epic conclusionary post to our middle school experiences but this blog really has only chronicled (can I say that it really even chronicled due to our sporadic postings?) the later half of our eighth grade year. So I guess all I can really say is that I'm glad it's over but at the same time I wish I could live in a perpetual 7th grade. Everyone's experiences are different so I won't speak for the other writers here at The Crew but at least that's how I feel.
Now that it's summer (it's been summer since June 11th or something but whatevs), I haven't really done much. Had three amazing sleepovers with Nikki, Liza, and my friend Anna who I met through Rookie, Payton and I start camp next week, and Alice and I are having our second date in three days (Wednesday). All in all it's starting off to be a great summer. For camp you're supposed to write a little piece of non fiction to bring in to the creative writing class. I'm still working on mine but here it is so far.
I tell her about another sleepover where I had stuck my head out the window in the rain at 3 am and watched my friends make sundaes in their mouths. She cuts me off, asking if I want to go outside now. Before I can think I’m saying yes and she’s unlocking the sliding door in the kitchen and telling me to wait on the porch. She goes to find her skateboard in the garage.
I follow the sound of her voice and use my cell phone as a flashlight. She says I won’t need it since the streetlights are so bright. She says the neighborhood is safe. Soon I’m running alongside her skateboard as she tells me about all of her neighbors. The street lights illuminate her as she skates ahead of me. I take the camera from her. Click. The flash goes off. Everything is bright for a second before fading back into the early morning darkness.
So far it is sort of shitty. It's about the sleepover I had with Anna. We snuck out of her house at midnight and took photos and she skateboarded around and it was a really sort of cinematic moment. I'm trying to capture that visual in my writing but I hardly ever write outside of school since I always feel stupid doing it. This summer I really hope to improve my writing and also my drawing since I found a ton of really nice markers in our pantry a few days ago. Every summer I also make a 50 things to do list which I'm working on completing fully this year (I never have before). Not sure if I should also put that here since it's super long and boring but if you don't care then just don't read it I guess.
1,) Write (and send) at least 50 letters
2,) Send 5 packages
3,) Make a zine
4,) Go on a date
5,) Follow camp route
6,) Go to camp with Payton
7,) Watch all the movies on my movie list
8,) Read all the books on my reading list
9,) Make/fly a kite
10,) Go to a carnival/fair/board walk
11,) Eat soft serve ice cream in a park
12,) Get film developed
13,) Go to the Renegade Craft Fair
14,) Watch the sun rise on Nikki’s roof
15,) Send a message in a bottle
16,) Spend the afternoon hanging out by the pond at the Peggy Notebaert Nature Museum
17,) Win at the Game of Life
18,) Make a pom pom crown
19,) Reach 200 followers on Tumblr
20,) Make a milkshake that brings all the boys to the yard
21,) Go to Build-A-Bear workshop and build a bear.
22,) Stay up all night
23,) Make homemade ice cream from scratch
24,) Bake a funfetti cake
25,) Set a balloon free
26,) Learn how to make paper boats
27,) Camp out in a living room fort/tent
28,) Press some flowers
29,) Have an anti-social party with party hats and unsalted tears
30,) Make a root beer float
31,) Organize everything in my room by color
32,) Become pen pals with someone (Kaede, Ming, Liza, ect.)
33,) Have a piece published in Rookie
34,) Start keeping a daily calendar
35,) Learn how to paint with water colors
36,) Consistently update the blog
37,) Go to CAKE and have a slumber partay with Kat
38,) Throw a surprise party
39,) Bake lemon squares
40,) Have a garden party
41,) Paint over a photo
42,) Visit the main library
43,) Make collages with Liza
44,) Have a Veggie Tales/Sharpay’s Fabulous Adventure/Pocahontas marathon with Nikki
45,) Learn how to embroider
46,) Read at least 25 books
47,) Watch all of Numb3rs
48,) Watch all of Torchwood
49,) Have a picnic
50,) Play with an Ouija board

So far I've gotten four things done. The Ouija board thing has been on my list for as long as I've been making one (three years about?) so I'd really like to get it done. I just don't have a Ouija board or know anyone who has one.

I should probably go to bed since it's midnight and I have to go get my glasses fixed tomorrow and then also get some camp stuff and clean my room and all that fun stuff.

Toodles!

Simone

7/1/13

12:23am

Activity Period

Hi y'all,
I'm writing this post from the last activity period The Crew (I feel sort of silly referring to us like that) will ever experience. Next week we have an assembly, and the week after that we'll have graduated the 8th grade. Wow. It is so weird being an ~almost highschooler~. Activity period is sort of like recess at Lab. We get it once a week for one class period and you can sign up for fun activities like outdoor play or short films or something. Liza's and my French teacher was going to do an impressionist picnic activity period where we all would go and make impressionist foods and she would have 'absinthe' for us to drink (aka green soda). No one really signed up though so we're in iPod socializing. I'm just sort of listening to my iPod, not really socializing. I really wanted this to be some really super fun activity period but I'm blogging and Saskia, Alice, and Liza are looking at Lesbians Who Look Like Justin Bieber. I should just stop moping around and blogging and either finish reading Paper Towns (it's due back at the school library by the end of today!) or join them on the other end of the table. Idk. Whenever I get my hopes up that something will be super fun I feel like it just is super awkward. I'll look back on today and probably remember it as fun and much better as a memory than it actually was in the moment. I'm working on getting everyone to start updating this blog more since it's been inactive for a while. I'm still not really sure if I should elaborate on who exactly I am, instead of sort of barging into this whole blog and whatnot. Um, so I'm Simone. I'm fourteen. I go to school with Liza, Alice, and Saskia at the school that Payton used to go to before she moved. I like reading, photography, Tumblr-ing, watching Doctor Who and Sherlock, cats, glitter, zines, and talking to myself on the internet (blogging). There are only 5 more academic days of school left, 1 test, 2 projects, and I still need to find shoes to go with my graduation dress. I'm sure that there is a better way to end this but jumping from topic to topic just suits my mood right now.
Toodles!
Simone